another day

Just hours ago, 2am, I was cryin' myself to sleep. Because it was then I realized that I don't have the things that I thought I have. Someone told me that I don't have friends who could be with me anywhere I want to go; who could stay with me. It was then it came to my mind that it's somehow true. Yes, I have friends... true ones, but most of them are guys and two or three girls I think. But he said that they're not enough. He said that they can't be with me if I need them 'coz most of them are guys.
Since then, I started thinking of some possible factors why I just can't make friends. I just can't 'coz somehow I am afraid, maybe. I do have friends but not as close as those guys and a couple of girls that I have. I'm just too afraid to let someone in or maybe, I'm just too busy doin' and thinkin' about something else and I can't find time to mingle with everybody.
Tough gets tougher, I promise to myself that from now on, I'll make MORE friends... true friends.

And also one things' certain, I miss my friends. Everyone of them: Christine G. and Francis A., Karen, Allyne V., RJ N., Rey C., and all the others. I hope that we could get together soon. They are ALL THAT I HAVE, and I certainly hope that they also HAVE ME.