five people you meet in HEAVEN... (part one)

"Five People You Meet In Heaven" by Mitch Albom is cool. Ganda ang story kahit kalahati pa lang ng libro ang aking nabasa. Two people pa lang ang aking na-meet.. hehehe:) But ang dami ko ng natutunan.

One line from the book that I can't forget:
"The time you waste is the time that you think that you're alone."

Tatapusin ko muna ang libro and I'll try to tell you bits of it..:)

another day

Just hours ago, 2am, I was cryin' myself to sleep. Because it was then I realized that I don't have the things that I thought I have. Someone told me that I don't have friends who could be with me anywhere I want to go; who could stay with me. It was then it came to my mind that it's somehow true. Yes, I have friends... true ones, but most of them are guys and two or three girls I think. But he said that they're not enough. He said that they can't be with me if I need them 'coz most of them are guys.
Since then, I started thinking of some possible factors why I just can't make friends. I just can't 'coz somehow I am afraid, maybe. I do have friends but not as close as those guys and a couple of girls that I have. I'm just too afraid to let someone in or maybe, I'm just too busy doin' and thinkin' about something else and I can't find time to mingle with everybody.
Tough gets tougher, I promise to myself that from now on, I'll make MORE friends... true friends.

And also one things' certain, I miss my friends. Everyone of them: Christine G. and Francis A., Karen, Allyne V., RJ N., Rey C., and all the others. I hope that we could get together soon. They are ALL THAT I HAVE, and I certainly hope that they also HAVE ME.

it's there but it feels like it's not

It's weird. I'm surrounded by all good true friends (I suppose), but it feels that no one's there. "I feel so alone.." I feel so alone.

I learned in my philosophy class that being alone is not only evidenced by the physical fact that no one is near you or no one is with you. It a state that you feel so alone in this world. It's a state that no one cares or notices your being.. your exsistence.. your intersubjectivity. Those are the times that you feel really lonely even if a whole class is with you; or the whole world is revolving with you... if all of them doesn't notice your exsistence, YOU'RE ALONE... I'M ALONE.

Today, I just feel that way. I feel that no one is there. True friends are there. I do have them. The question is.. DO THEY ALSO HAVE ME?